2015 & Everything in Between

I can't even begin to sum up the past 9 months that have passed since I blogged. There is way too much for one post. I will say that I am in a better place (mentally) than I was last year. Through reading personal development type books, honing in on my spirituality, learning more about Autism and getting more help for Liam, writing in a journal again and learning more about myself and the things I desire...I am a better woman, mom and person.

Liam just started Kindergarten 3 weeks ago and is loving it so far. The BIG 6 is coming up in about a month! I am still amazed at how he is growing my leaps and bounds. He's 4ft tall now.

I'm obviously still grappling with some things, but I am finding my way. I won't say I'm 100% happy, but I am finding my way and that to me makes all the difference. I pinky promise this won't be my last blog post of the year. <3

- Cicely

Still Around!

Hey everyone!
Life has been work, work, work and more work. I started the basics of my application to Pace University's CDP program and am trying to get my life together and study for the GRE that I plan to take mid-September. I've packed in more hours with Benefit this month and next and am definitely happy working for them although I have been so tired lately.

Liam is doing great! He is no longer in toddler sizes anymore but now officially wears a Boys size 4! :) I can't believe how big he is getting! It blows my mind. He will be 3 in about 8/9 weeks and I'm still trying to figure out what we're going to do for the big day. He will also be starting preschool the Wednesday after labor day! My baby is almost grown.

As for me: My Midsummer Night's Run 5k is this Saturday at 8:30pm - I need to pick up my packet this week AND get new shoes. I'm still stagnant with the weight loss but it is all because of me! I've got to break this plateau or be stuck here forever. I had a photo shoot Sunday and it turned out great, I have another one tomorrow and can't wait for the results of that one! I don't have to mention how dismal the dating situation is...y'all already know!

With court, it looks like trial is inevitable, so I am getting things together for that. Smh...

Otherwise nothing else is really going on. Class starts back in 2 weeks from today and I'm ready to tackle the challenges I know this semester will pose for me!

Until again,
Cicely

Amor y Vida

Two things that go together...two things I believe in. Two things that keep me going...These are pictures of a date me and Liam went on last weekend. :) I love spending this QT with my son. It gives me life. 

 giving face!

 

reaching for the camera

 he was playing coy lol.Boy please!

 we were meant to be

 

stealing kisses

 

his model pose lol

                                                First time on a train "ride" lol. Worth the 50 cents :).

 well this is us a couple of days ago on Friday night. I love him too much.:)

Discover the Dinosaurs

La Quince

Yesterday Liam and I went to a Quinceanera of a close family friend (my family have known this family for about 11-12 years now) and they are the best kind of people! :) My little Alejandra (or Alex as she goes by now) is finally a woman! :) :'). I feel like a proud older sister. Most of the kids in the family I have know since they were Liam's age or younger and they are now all school age, most middle and a few in high school. One of them even has a baby of her own now and will be starting college, majoring in Nursing, this Fall. I'm so very proud of all my kids :).

Liam danced up a storm last night haha! Now you all know that I love my latin music and of course put all sorts of music in rotation at home, but since this was mi familia mexicana...pues, we had to do it in traditional Cumbia, Zapateado and Durangese style with some sprinklings of reggaeton. And Cumbia is my 1st love of all Latin music. It's the salsa of Mexico & Central America. :) Liam's fast azz even approached some older girls to dance (like ages 15-17). I'm all the way over him right now! :)

Here's some pics of the night of fun we had! Now one thing y'all should  know if you don't -when people of color (aNY COLOR) party...we PARTAY! Liquor, music and mad dancing lol :) That's a good time in my book. *excuse the quality of these pics*

 Chambelàns

 the start of the festejando lol

 me trying to get a good pic and Liam trying to check out the dancing

 floor filling up :)

 La reina del party - Alex

 caught him off guard while we were seated cenando

Looking Up, Out & Ahead

After the amazingly shitastic week I had last week,the tides have certainly changed. Once I snapped out of moping and really put some things into perspective, my mood and my week headed for the better. I have been trying to do something new every morning. My goal is to, upon waking, thank God for five things in my life. It can be anything, but I just have to do it.

This morning:

1) that I'm alive
2) Liam's sleeping, healthym happy body next to mine
3) that I have come so far in this weight loss journey
4) that mom and dad are ok
5) that I had enough money to pay bills this week and buy myself and Liam something extra

So let's recap the good this week:
1) got asked to do a DVD review for my blog for the company Copy-Kids. REALLY excited about this because I am totally behind the company's mission which is to get kids eating healthier by copying other kids eat their fruits and veggies. Since I'm on my lifestyle change, I'm all about this!

2) Got a little OT at work

3) am in the process of FINALLY reaching a settlement agreement with the Other (Liam's sperm donor). I'm hoping and praying for this to work out. That would mean no trial and much less money I'd have to spend.

4) Good grades

5) had some amazing workouts!

6) bought some much needed new and cute clothes (i'll do a style post)

7) got to bond with some of the kids at my library job

8) felt damn good about myself

9) got to spend some extra QT with Liam :)

June Thus Far...

Sometimes I'm so busy I really don't know if I'm coming or going lol. This was one of those weeks. I have been all over the place. Training for freelance jobs, prepping for summer at the library,homework, class, Liam...hell there were a couple of days I even forgot to eat for most of the day.

I just wanted to take this time out to update you guys on my life! I finished my Isagenix Isabody Challenge! From January 5-June 7 I lost 25 lbs (total 46 overall) and rediscovered myself in the process. I am on a new path in life and I'm not turning back. With the challenge I am competing to win a cruise, a lot of other great prizes and the grand prize of $25,000. Honestly, even if I win nothing it was worth the experience to do it! I committed to something and I saw it through. I kicked ass through personal problems, a busy single mom life, school and everything else. I made it! :)

I have found the PERFECT fit for Liam for preschool and hope to start him Aug 1! I finally got to go for a classroom visit today with Liam and I'm in love with the place. The way they do things really aligns with how I would like for things to be with him in the classroom.

I lost another lb. As mentioned above I am now -46lbs, and only 8 lbs from the 1/2 way point. In case I didn't tell you guys my ultimate goal is to lose 108 lbs! That's a person! lol But I'm almost 1/2 way there. Wow!

I am a contributing writer for a new online women's mag called Rachael Magazine. Please subscribe, check out my article on budget makeup and the other great articles. I'm excited to be apart of the magazine. and of course the magazine is based out of NYC (cool connection - the editor/owner is a Kentucky girl too! How cool is that?) So go check it out: http://rachaelmagazine.com/

I am probably going to regret this...but I had cocktails and coffee with a recent old interest (lol) when I was in NYC.Ok yea so random combo #dontjudgeme. Anyways, I feel very comfortable with him. Conversation is natural, I feel giddy around him and it's almost impossible not to smile.I like him.  But I digress. In his case, he has loose strings in his life to tie up and I am giving him the space to do that. I don't call him much or text him everyday, but I do think about him often. Today a  funny situation arose and he was one of the 1st ppl I thought of to send a text message. In his response to my text,  he mentioned that he was visiting family some 3,000 miles away and had just walked by a window ad with a plus size model in it and a few seconds later my text came...I know that I'm probably reading more into it than is there. But there is a spark between us (not love necessarily), but something between us just clicks. I don't know if he feels it too,but I think he does. Seriously a mash-up of Kings of Leon's "Use Somebody" & Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream" plays in the background lmmfao.  I'm NOT acting on it. Again, he has a situation to deal with and I have to focus on Nursing school,Liam and the rest of my life. So life must go on as planned. Something tells me that if/when I move back to NYC I'm gonna be in some major trouble though...smh lol

Otherwise I'm surviving and thriving! :)