There is a direct correlation to people in good health and higher levels of happiness :)
Just some food for thought for the day :)
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Poetry Pause
Sight
written 10/2011 - sole intellectual propety and original concept of Cicely N. Carter
This is because I have never truly been seen.
Not one has felt the warmth from the fire that gleams within
or bothered to feed those flames.
There hasn't been one time where the enigma of my Aquarian mind
has been caressed and coddled
where my wildest dreams were fashioned into a reality by a vision other than my own
This is because no one sees me,
they don't care to discover the entricacies of my heart
unsheath the mind that covers my razor tongue
unearth the bare soul that lies within this vessel.
they see what they want and what they see is what they get.
written 10/2011 - sole intellectual propety and original concept of Cicely N. Carter
This is because I have never truly been seen.
Not one has felt the warmth from the fire that gleams within
or bothered to feed those flames.
There hasn't been one time where the enigma of my Aquarian mind
has been caressed and coddled
where my wildest dreams were fashioned into a reality by a vision other than my own
This is because no one sees me,
they don't care to discover the entricacies of my heart
unsheath the mind that covers my razor tongue
unearth the bare soul that lies within this vessel.
they see what they want and what they see is what they get.
Because I Care...About Me
The older I get the more I decide the less bullshit that I'm going to deal with. I am far from being the person I dreamed I'd be at this age, but I refuse to be derailed any further on my path to success. I have had to do some real soul searching these past few months and I'm not standing for the bullshit/fuckery/buffoonery of any kind. If you are not aiding me in reaching my destination, you are a deterrent and must be eliminated from my life.
My flaw when I was younger was letting too many people in, not appreciating myself and not TRULY valuing myself as a woman, person and someone who can contribute great things to the lives of those I encounter and this Earth.
The true purpose of this post is to affirm that I am done wasting time. I value myself, my life and the life of my son to do so anymore. If I'm taking steps, it HAS to be in a positive direction.
My flaw when I was younger was letting too many people in, not appreciating myself and not TRULY valuing myself as a woman, person and someone who can contribute great things to the lives of those I encounter and this Earth.
The true purpose of this post is to affirm that I am done wasting time. I value myself, my life and the life of my son to do so anymore. If I'm taking steps, it HAS to be in a positive direction.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Losing Weight, Gaining Life
So I wanted to post about my successes thus far since being on my weight loss journey. I have had more time evaluate and reflect on myself as well...I see where I am, where I was and where I want to be. I'm going to write a list of The 5 Reasons I HAVE to Lose Weight:
1) My health - this is priceless. Once your health is gone, so is your quality of life. I am too young to not be LIVING & enjoying it. I want to see my son grow up and help guide him through life.
2) Liam - almost like #1, but I have to be a positive example for him. Being obese is not the lesson I want him to take from me. I want our family/household to be active and healthy. It starts with me.
3) I'm tired of being unhealthy - So I am generally a confident person, but the weight I have gained in the past couple of years has really taken a toll on me. I feel like and look like I have let myself go. Not good. I want to feel good in my clothes; sexy, confident, strong like I did when I was younger.
4) To be able to have a career as a plus size model - let's get real. Big can be beautiful but out of shape and proportion is not. I need to be toned, healthy and beautiful. I want all three of those things and NEED them to be working as a model. My goal is a size 16. If I became a 14, I wouldn't have a problem with that
5) to show off - yes I am being vain right now, but when you lose weight and tone your body and train it into shape, you have a right to show it off. I'm going to be classy, not trashy but sexy all the way. Mini skirts, fitted dresses, fitted tops and dare I say a 2 piece bathing suit one day?! Oh boy! I am truly looking forward to being comfortable and looking good in all that I wear! :)
1) My health - this is priceless. Once your health is gone, so is your quality of life. I am too young to not be LIVING & enjoying it. I want to see my son grow up and help guide him through life.
2) Liam - almost like #1, but I have to be a positive example for him. Being obese is not the lesson I want him to take from me. I want our family/household to be active and healthy. It starts with me.
3) I'm tired of being unhealthy - So I am generally a confident person, but the weight I have gained in the past couple of years has really taken a toll on me. I feel like and look like I have let myself go. Not good. I want to feel good in my clothes; sexy, confident, strong like I did when I was younger.
4) To be able to have a career as a plus size model - let's get real. Big can be beautiful but out of shape and proportion is not. I need to be toned, healthy and beautiful. I want all three of those things and NEED them to be working as a model. My goal is a size 16. If I became a 14, I wouldn't have a problem with that
5) to show off - yes I am being vain right now, but when you lose weight and tone your body and train it into shape, you have a right to show it off. I'm going to be classy, not trashy but sexy all the way. Mini skirts, fitted dresses, fitted tops and dare I say a 2 piece bathing suit one day?! Oh boy! I am truly looking forward to being comfortable and looking good in all that I wear! :)
Friday, September 30, 2011
Woke Up in a Better Mood & Better Headspace
On a very good note. I am now down 4.6 lbs and it feels good, yeeeaaah! lol
I will continue to pray about the custody situation and let God handle it.
I am now going to enjoy preschool hunting for Liam and have included Mom & Dad in the process as well :).
I am considering the following:
Sayre - the same private school I attended for 14 years. They now have a pre-k 3 and montessori program, although montessori is #1 for me
Lexington Montessori
Community Montessori
Children's Montessori School of Georgetown
Versailles Montessori
Today's agenda take Poops to the doctor to investigate the terrible cold, work, then try to get a workout in today!
Tomorrow we do Festival of the Horse in Georgetown :); I'm definitely taking pics and will post some on here.
I am going to enjoy my day/weekend with my love and not let anything or anyone get in the way of me doing that
I will continue to pray about the custody situation and let God handle it.
I am now going to enjoy preschool hunting for Liam and have included Mom & Dad in the process as well :).
I am considering the following:
Sayre - the same private school I attended for 14 years. They now have a pre-k 3 and montessori program, although montessori is #1 for me
Lexington Montessori
Community Montessori
Children's Montessori School of Georgetown
Versailles Montessori
Today's agenda take Poops to the doctor to investigate the terrible cold, work, then try to get a workout in today!
Tomorrow we do Festival of the Horse in Georgetown :); I'm definitely taking pics and will post some on here.
I am going to enjoy my day/weekend with my love and not let anything or anyone get in the way of me doing that
Thursday, September 29, 2011
My Best is Not Always Good Enough
And that is exactly how I am feeling these days. I feel like one good thing will happen, just to make room for two more bad things. I know I am being tested, but I could just use a break for a minute. This custody thing SUCKS. I still maintain that I am doing what's best for the Poopster and I am aware and accept the sacrifices I have to make for him to have the life he deserves. I am by no means perfect, but I do feel like when it comes to this matter, I am being an adult about the situation to no avail.
All I know is I am doing this because I love my son and HE deserves the best. I just can't say anything else. If the shoe was on the other foot and I was in HIS situation - it would be SERIOUS. NOTHING BUT DEATH could keep me from my son. When Liam was in Kentucky before I was, I was depressed. I called multiple times a day, I wanted pics of him every day, I wanted to hear his voice everyday!!! For the simple fact, he wants none of those things, it is obvious this is a plan to get back at me! Fine, do what you have to do to me, but do NOT make MY son suffer b/c you're a damn fool! Get over yourself, please!
All I can do is pray to God for the strenght to do what I need to do and for guidance in doing the right thing.
Unitl again,
Cicely
All I know is I am doing this because I love my son and HE deserves the best. I just can't say anything else. If the shoe was on the other foot and I was in HIS situation - it would be SERIOUS. NOTHING BUT DEATH could keep me from my son. When Liam was in Kentucky before I was, I was depressed. I called multiple times a day, I wanted pics of him every day, I wanted to hear his voice everyday!!! For the simple fact, he wants none of those things, it is obvious this is a plan to get back at me! Fine, do what you have to do to me, but do NOT make MY son suffer b/c you're a damn fool! Get over yourself, please!
All I can do is pray to God for the strenght to do what I need to do and for guidance in doing the right thing.
Unitl again,
Cicely
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Updates 'Cuz I'm Bad at This Lately!
Sooo much has been going on with me...the good and the bad. I had a short break from working out b/c I was sick for a few days. I am down 3 lbs (big fun since it's week 5 now! *sigh*).
I'm sick and tired of the custody b.s. :/
I'm broke and am actively looking for job #2...overnight would be best, but morning would work too!
Poops is 2 in 3 Sundays! Can't believe it. We are thinking a Monkey Joe's celebration and or the Horspark/Lex Children's museum :)
I'm sick and tired of the custody b.s. :/
I'm broke and am actively looking for job #2...overnight would be best, but morning would work too!
Poops is 2 in 3 Sundays! Can't believe it. We are thinking a Monkey Joe's celebration and or the Horspark/Lex Children's museum :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
It's been a long time!
Yes, I admit. I have neglected you for far too long lol. Yep, I've been busy with work, trying to lose weight, working on being a good mom and letting life get in the way. I am currently sick with a mild cold b/c of this damn weather change. I feel like ish, but I'll be fine with some cough drops and more tea...*sigh* I dont even feel like eatin lol - yes might lose another lb or 2 this week. I have decided that June next year, I will be looking for a full time job in beauty. I will also continue to develop my own business, but I can't just let my dreams of being in beauty management die.
I have also resolved that I am moving back to NYC, I have to. Part of my survival depends on it. So once I get a handle on my debt, My goal will be saving $ to live in NYC again. I want to model again, I want to work in makeup again, I want me and Liam to forge our own lives independent of my parents. They may not understand, but I am doing what they always taught me to do: follow my dreams and my heart...both of which are in NYC.
But when I go back, I have a plan.
Have enough $ for 6 months rent and utilities expenses
Live in a place I can afford the rent
Go to school to get my waxing license
find the best montessori school for Liam + sitter/daycare - using the Child care assistance
be financially responsible
create a home out of a house/apartment
LIVE - go to the zoo, aquarium, yankee game with Liam. do the things we should have been doing but were too broke to enjoy
stay fit - join gym or PT with Diane
2013...I'm back baby!
I have also resolved that I am moving back to NYC, I have to. Part of my survival depends on it. So once I get a handle on my debt, My goal will be saving $ to live in NYC again. I want to model again, I want to work in makeup again, I want me and Liam to forge our own lives independent of my parents. They may not understand, but I am doing what they always taught me to do: follow my dreams and my heart...both of which are in NYC.
But when I go back, I have a plan.
Have enough $ for 6 months rent and utilities expenses
Live in a place I can afford the rent
Go to school to get my waxing license
find the best montessori school for Liam + sitter/daycare - using the Child care assistance
be financially responsible
create a home out of a house/apartment
LIVE - go to the zoo, aquarium, yankee game with Liam. do the things we should have been doing but were too broke to enjoy
stay fit - join gym or PT with Diane
2013...I'm back baby!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
First day of September!
Hey guys! I have been neglecting my blog somewhat! So my weight loss journey began once again Monday, August 29, 2011. I am down 1 lb, have worked out 3x this week and began weight watchers today. There is much more to come in my future.
Check out my youtube channel: MissCicelyCarter for updates on weight loss stuff
Otherwise, life is ok. I am paying things off and trying to start the rest of my life one piece at a time. Thanks to all my friends and family for the support :)
More to come soon,
Cicely
Check out my youtube channel: MissCicelyCarter for updates on weight loss stuff
Otherwise, life is ok. I am paying things off and trying to start the rest of my life one piece at a time. Thanks to all my friends and family for the support :)
More to come soon,
Cicely
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