Woke Up in a Better Mood & Better Headspace

On a very good note. I am now down 4.6 lbs and it feels good, yeeeaaah! lol

I will continue to pray about the custody situation and let God handle it.

I am now going to enjoy preschool hunting for Liam and have included Mom & Dad in the process as well :).

I am considering the following:

Sayre - the same private school I attended for 14 years. They now have a pre-k 3 and montessori program, although montessori is #1 for me

Lexington Montessori

Community Montessori

Children's Montessori School of Georgetown

Versailles Montessori

Today's agenda take Poops to the doctor to investigate the terrible cold, work, then try to get a workout in today!

Tomorrow we do Festival of the Horse in Georgetown :); I'm definitely taking pics and will post some on here.

I am going to enjoy my day/weekend with my love and not let anything or anyone get in the way of me doing that

Baby Love :)

What ALWAYS makes me happy :)

my fave :)

My Best is Not Always Good Enough

And that is exactly how I am feeling these days. I feel like one good thing will happen, just to make room for two more bad things. I know I am being tested, but I could just use a break for a minute. This custody thing SUCKS. I still maintain that I am doing what's best for the Poopster and I am aware and accept the sacrifices I have to make for him to have the life he deserves. I am by no means perfect, but I do feel like when it comes to this matter, I am being an adult about the situation to no avail.

All I know is I am doing this because I love my son and HE deserves the best. I just can't say anything else. If the shoe was on the other foot and I was in HIS situation - it would be SERIOUS. NOTHING BUT DEATH could keep me from my son. When Liam was in Kentucky before I was, I was depressed. I called multiple times a day, I wanted pics of him every day, I wanted to hear his voice everyday!!! For the simple fact, he wants none of those things, it is obvious this is a plan to get back at me! Fine, do what you have to do to me, but do NOT make MY son suffer b/c you're a damn fool! Get over yourself, please!

All I can do is pray to God for the strenght to do what I need to do and for guidance in doing the right thing.

Unitl again,
Cicely

Updates 'Cuz I'm Bad at This Lately!

Sooo much has been going on with me...the good and the bad. I had a short break from working out b/c I was sick for a few days. I am down 3 lbs (big fun since it's week 5 now! *sigh*).

I'm sick and tired of the custody b.s. :/

I'm broke and am actively looking for job #2...overnight would be best, but morning would work too!

Poops is 2 in 3 Sundays! Can't believe it. We are thinking a Monkey Joe's celebration and or the Horspark/Lex Children's museum :)

It's been a long time!

Yes, I admit. I have neglected you for far too long lol. Yep, I've been busy with work, trying to lose weight, working on being a good mom and letting life get in the way. I am currently sick with a mild cold b/c of this damn weather change. I feel like ish, but I'll be fine with some cough drops and more tea...*sigh* I dont even feel like eatin lol - yes might lose another lb or 2 this week. I have decided that June next year, I will be looking for a full time job in beauty. I will also continue to develop my own business, but I can't just let my dreams of being in beauty management die.

I have also resolved that I am moving back to NYC, I have to. Part of my survival depends on it. So once I get a handle on my debt, My goal will be saving $ to live in NYC again. I want to model again, I want to work in makeup again, I want me and Liam to forge our own lives independent of my parents. They may not understand, but I am doing what they always taught me to do: follow my dreams and my heart...both of which are in NYC.

But when I go back, I have a plan.

Have enough $ for 6 months rent and utilities expenses
Live in a place I can afford the rent
Go to school to get my waxing license
find the best montessori school for Liam + sitter/daycare - using the Child care assistance
be financially responsible
create a home out of a house/apartment
LIVE - go to the zoo, aquarium, yankee game with Liam. do the things we should have been doing but were too broke to enjoy
stay fit - join gym or PT with Diane

2013...I'm back baby!

First day of September!

Hey guys! I have been neglecting my blog somewhat! So my weight loss journey began once again Monday, August 29, 2011. I am down 1 lb, have worked out 3x this week and began weight watchers today. There is much more to come in my future.

Check out my youtube channel: MissCicelyCarter  for updates on weight loss stuff

Otherwise, life is ok. I am paying things off and trying to start the rest of my life one piece at a time. Thanks to all my friends and family for the support :)

More to come soon,

Cicely

Day 1 - I actually Moved My Ass

So yes, I did my first day of the Jillian Michaels Shred-it with Weights (Kettelebells) and I am loving it! :) It truly kicked my ass! :) I miss that feeling. I got a great burst of enegery. My hunger was down today and I was in a overall MUCH better mood. That being said, I am still far from where I want to be but moving steadily in the right direction.

My goal is to work out 5x this week. I will begin my gym membership at the YMCA this Thursday and start Weight Watchers this Friday or Saturday. I AM going to make this change, PERMANENTLY. I owe it to Liam as well as to myself :).

P.S. Full Figured Fashion Week next June in NYC??? Yep! here I come. I'm going to audition and I'm going to ace it and launch my plus model career once for all dammit. I'm focused, man!!! (Jay Z voice)

Physical Fitness - Long Overdue

I am officially on my way. The Plan: Take it step by step + week by week. Every week I am setting a goal for my self and every month I am setting a goal for myself.

I am going to alternate 2 Jillian Michaels DVDs: 30 Day Shred & Shred-it With Weights (Kettlebell workout) AND supplement that with Weight Watchers and going to the YMCA gym. So my first week goal is to work out 5x, consume at least 1 bottle of water/day, no pop and eat healtheir.

I'm doing my goals in stages: Short term -50lbs in 5 months
September - goal is -10lbs
October- goal is -10lbs
Nov : -10lbs
Dec: -10lbs
January: - 10lbs

So by Feb 1 (my 24th birthday) I will be 50 lbs lighter.

Ultimate goal: This time next year - August 2012 - 100lbs lost and a size 14/16, (whichever comes first). Because of modeling, I am more concerned with size/measurements and less with weight. Overall I want to be healthy and active AND in plus size model shape :).

The work begins tomorrow! With 30 day Shred!

Poetry Pause

Heart/Mind (read as Heart Over Mind)

written 8/2011 - sole intellectual propety and original concept of Cicely N. Carter


I know how dumb I may seem
because every single day
something reminds me of you.

Even though logic dictates my brain
the rhythm in my chest knows I feel
otherwise.

Poetry Pause

Haiku : Beat

written 8/25/2011 - sole intellectual propety of Cicely N. Carter

When u look @ me
my heart skips a beat, buh-boom.
i want this for life