Wow! Another year has passed and tomorrow I will be 24 years old. Where the hell is time going?! lol I don't feel old, but mostly I feel unaccomplished. So in an effort to make myself feel better lol I'm going to go over the good points of the past year:
At 23, I:
1) Quit a job I despised and finally found a meaningful one (library)
2) Paid off rent I owed at my former apartment
3) filed for custody and child support for Liam
4) met Diane who became my personal trainer and friend :)
5) made a move that I sometimes still regret but that I know was the best move for me and my family (Liam)
6) got hired to Freelance for 2 different companies
7) started L.I.A.M. Artistry, LLC as a REAL business :)
8) reconnected with some old friends
9) finished paying of a credit card
10) finally got some stability in Liam's life
11) Seriously started on a weight loss journey and lost 30 lbs
12) began to take my blog seriously :)
13) even tough we argue, have a better relationship with mom and dad
14) improved my makeup skills
15) FINALLY discovered a career path that would allow me to combine the things I LOVE to do with my passion for helping people while at the same time allowing me flexibility, time with Liam and a life while making pretty good pay - hoping to start school again in a few months
16) opened up my mind to SERIOUSLY dating again because I discovered what I am truly looking for in a MAN; someone who is in it for the long haul
17) embraced my natural hair and REALLY started taking care of it!
18) fell in love with the kids at my job :)
19) got over the hatred I was holding inside for Liam's "dad"
20) started to take more control over my life
21) entered in a modeling competition
22) had a photoshoot after a 2 year hiatus
23) grew up a little more
Can't wait to see what 24 holds! :)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Friday, January 27, 2012
...Rearing Its Ugly Head Again
It's so funny how today I read a post from the blog "Single Mama NYC" about your past creeping into your future. I have felt in that type of mode for a few days now. Up until this week, I had a REALLY good momentum going and then all of a sudden I am starting to sabotage my efforts. I don't know why really...I sometimes seem to do that when things are going good. But no matter how great my mood, energy and weight loss is going, I still can't hide from the facts:
I have credit card debt (chipping away at it slowly)
I have student loan debt (chipping away at it slowly too)
I have to spend $ I don't have to travel to NYC 2x this Spring
I still have about 70 lbs to lose
My newest business venture hasn't brought me any money in thus far
I NEED a full time job (the library I love but I can't do 20 hrs a week and pay all the things I have to nor do anything extra. Plus the freelance work is so few and far between I can't rely on that money to help)
Child support didn't come this week and may not come again for a while
So I feel like in a lot of ways, I am back to square one. Square -1 actually...I don't know what to do. I honestly cannot think of a solution this time. I have been scouring job listing and can't find anything that is a good fit! I need some help, divine help at this point because nothing in my human capacity is working. I don't know what to do...
I have credit card debt (chipping away at it slowly)
I have student loan debt (chipping away at it slowly too)
I have to spend $ I don't have to travel to NYC 2x this Spring
I still have about 70 lbs to lose
My newest business venture hasn't brought me any money in thus far
I NEED a full time job (the library I love but I can't do 20 hrs a week and pay all the things I have to nor do anything extra. Plus the freelance work is so few and far between I can't rely on that money to help)
Child support didn't come this week and may not come again for a while
So I feel like in a lot of ways, I am back to square one. Square -1 actually...I don't know what to do. I honestly cannot think of a solution this time. I have been scouring job listing and can't find anything that is a good fit! I need some help, divine help at this point because nothing in my human capacity is working. I don't know what to do...
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Sneak Peak of Today's Shoot
Lighting is terrible in this pic but check the makeup :) We did 2 different makeup looks and 2 outfit changes! :) More/edited pics to come
Friday, January 20, 2012
News Break: Violent sex crimes by U.S. Army soldiers rise: report
http://news.yahoo.com/violent-sex-crimes-u-army-soldiers-rise-report-002201611.html
As a person who totally supports our troops and knows people and is related to people in all branches of the military, this makes me sad. In general, I don't think we (as a country) do enough for our American troops. We send them to war on multiple tours and they come back and often have inadequate resources to adapt to living a civilian life. I would like to see the Department of Defense's strategic plan for dealing with these issues. These troops (mostly male) are in dire need of mental health/behavorial counseling.
What can we do as a country to help these men and women? What would you do in this situation?
As a person who totally supports our troops and knows people and is related to people in all branches of the military, this makes me sad. In general, I don't think we (as a country) do enough for our American troops. We send them to war on multiple tours and they come back and often have inadequate resources to adapt to living a civilian life. I would like to see the Department of Defense's strategic plan for dealing with these issues. These troops (mostly male) are in dire need of mental health/behavorial counseling.
What can we do as a country to help these men and women? What would you do in this situation?
TGIF! :)
Hey guys,
just wanted to update you on some things going on! I have a pretty packed weekend planned.
Today's agenda:
*gym time for an hour
*pick up last accessories for photoshoot
*do my 1st makeup tutorial vid (or at least attempt)
*buy some balloons for my event with DuWop Cosmetics this Saturday @ Dillard's
*help mom to rebraid Liam's hair (she braids not me lol, I wrangle)
Saturday
*weigh-in ( I think I might have made my Feb 1 goal already! #pow)
*1 on 1 Preschool Screening with Liam 9:30-10am
*work DuWop Cosmetics event 12-6pm at Dillard's Edge beauty counter
*try to make WLJ week 23 vid
*wash.blow dry and straighten hair (doing a very simple, elegant bun for the shoot)
Sunday
*church
*photoshoot with Alicia C. @ 3:30 in Richmond
*do YT vid if not done previously (wlj week 23)
* do Isagenix update vid (#2)
Yep, that's it! :) there goes my weekend. But I am glad that I will be getting things done.
I can NOT stop thinking about this photoshoot! :) These are picks I will be using for the submissions to FFF Week runway, FFF Week Face of & also for the Dorothy Combs/Plus Model Mag search deadline January 31!!! I feeling excited just to know about the opportunities and in many ways, I am claiming 2012 as my year. The year I get in the shape of my life and MAINTAIN, the year I take my career as a plus model seriously and the year that I step up my game as a makeup artist. The most important improvement I want to make this year is being the best MOM I can be. Liam means more to me than life itself. I need to make this happen for us.
It's more than pretty pictures and the spotlight for me. I love art, I love creativity. I love that their is an outlet I can express myself and I don't have to look like what most of society claims is beautiful. I want to stand for those akward girls who just grew into their beauty and who finally realize that even with all the flaws and things you'd like to change, being YOU is great! :)
I feel so empowered guys! I truly thank God for the blessings. Moments like this you couldn't appreciate if you hadn't reached lows in your life. Forthcoming is the next custody hearing on Monday. I am praying all goes well with that, but I am not going to stress about it.
Until next time,
Cicely
just wanted to update you on some things going on! I have a pretty packed weekend planned.
Today's agenda:
*gym time for an hour
*pick up last accessories for photoshoot
*do my 1st makeup tutorial vid (or at least attempt)
*buy some balloons for my event with DuWop Cosmetics this Saturday @ Dillard's
*help mom to rebraid Liam's hair (she braids not me lol, I wrangle)
Saturday
*weigh-in ( I think I might have made my Feb 1 goal already! #pow)
*1 on 1 Preschool Screening with Liam 9:30-10am
*work DuWop Cosmetics event 12-6pm at Dillard's Edge beauty counter
*try to make WLJ week 23 vid
*wash.blow dry and straighten hair (doing a very simple, elegant bun for the shoot)
Sunday
*church
*photoshoot with Alicia C. @ 3:30 in Richmond
*do YT vid if not done previously (wlj week 23)
* do Isagenix update vid (#2)
Yep, that's it! :) there goes my weekend. But I am glad that I will be getting things done.
I can NOT stop thinking about this photoshoot! :) These are picks I will be using for the submissions to FFF Week runway, FFF Week Face of & also for the Dorothy Combs/Plus Model Mag search deadline January 31!!! I feeling excited just to know about the opportunities and in many ways, I am claiming 2012 as my year. The year I get in the shape of my life and MAINTAIN, the year I take my career as a plus model seriously and the year that I step up my game as a makeup artist. The most important improvement I want to make this year is being the best MOM I can be. Liam means more to me than life itself. I need to make this happen for us.
It's more than pretty pictures and the spotlight for me. I love art, I love creativity. I love that their is an outlet I can express myself and I don't have to look like what most of society claims is beautiful. I want to stand for those akward girls who just grew into their beauty and who finally realize that even with all the flaws and things you'd like to change, being YOU is great! :)
I feel so empowered guys! I truly thank God for the blessings. Moments like this you couldn't appreciate if you hadn't reached lows in your life. Forthcoming is the next custody hearing on Monday. I am praying all goes well with that, but I am not going to stress about it.
Until next time,
Cicely
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Plus Model Fever - The Makings of Cicely Plus Model
The time is upon us! :) January-April is always a hot time for the plus size modeling scene. This month I am submitting for the Dorothy Combs Agency/Plus Model Mag model search - deadline Jan 31
February will be my prep and practice for FFF Week 2012 runway model submission - deadline February 24
March - will be my time to shine when I submit for the Face of FFF Week 2012 competition. Deadline March 2
I could not be more ecstatic with all these opportunities fast approaching. I have one thing to say "I betta WORK"! lol I have got to get my runway walk tight! I am just glad to have these opportunities to get my self out there, to be exposed in a good way and possibly participate in the biggest events in America's plus size industry. My face could be on posters/websites/ad campaigns...WOW!
So i will link all my submissions to this blog of course and get some feed back from you guys. All my FFF Week stuff requires YT vids as well. You guys know I have no problems there!
Here's a toast to working hard towards being a successful plus size model *CHEERS*
February will be my prep and practice for FFF Week 2012 runway model submission - deadline February 24
March - will be my time to shine when I submit for the Face of FFF Week 2012 competition. Deadline March 2
I could not be more ecstatic with all these opportunities fast approaching. I have one thing to say "I betta WORK"! lol I have got to get my runway walk tight! I am just glad to have these opportunities to get my self out there, to be exposed in a good way and possibly participate in the biggest events in America's plus size industry. My face could be on posters/websites/ad campaigns...WOW!
So i will link all my submissions to this blog of course and get some feed back from you guys. All my FFF Week stuff requires YT vids as well. You guys know I have no problems there!
Here's a toast to working hard towards being a successful plus size model *CHEERS*
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