Fall - 3rd Year Blogversary

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I'm sooo terrible with blogging these days and for that I apologize. I seem to have the lack of "ganas" (desire) to do so and when I have coveted extra time, I usually doing homework, spending time with Liam or simply trying to gain some extra sleep. This month marks my 3rd year as a blogger! I can't believe the evolutions both this blog and my life have had since 2010. I am overall in a much better place and am raising a child who will soon be 4 years old!!! Where does time go?

I wrapped up an amazing shoot with Photography and Design by Lauren 3 weeks ago in August and you can see the newest additions to my modeling portfolio here: Cicely Carter Official Modeling Page or here Cicely Plus Model Facebook . I'm so proud of my work and how my portfolio has grown.

Liam is doing well in preschool and speech therapy. We are having him tested for Autism and honestly what I care about is that we get a diagnosis and can get him the help he needs to continue the thrive and excel in school and life.

Dating - y'all already know that story! lol

School - I applied for the Nursing program at EKU and am awaiting that response. I am applying to one other school and hoping and praying that I get in somewhere for the Spring semester for clinicals.

Work - I'm still at the hospital doing registration PRN and picking up all the hours I can. I have applied for numerous Nurse Aide/Tech positions specifically for overnights so that I can work 3 12 hour days and spend more time with Liam. Jesus be a FT overnight position with benefits so I can finally gain some financial stability in my life.

So sorry for the delay, but I'm back and trying to get back to regular and meaningful blog programming :).

Until again,
Cicely

Cicely Plus Model - August 2013 Preview Pics

Check these out from my photo shoot August 31. Shot by the oh so talented Lauren Morris of Photography and Design by Lauren. 

Caged

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I know I have spoken on this throughout my blog, but at heart I am a wanderer, an adventurer and I like to be in new places doing new things. My ideal life would be working in a place and then moving when I got tired/fulfilled my purpose there. That to me is perfection. Being a single parent and having a child thrown in the mix makes it super difficult to accomplish that.

 I have lived back in Kentucky for a little over 2 years now and I've felt trapped for the past year or so. I NEED to move, I need a fresh view and fresh air. Honestly, if it wasn't for Liam I would probably have never made it back to these parts.So I need to plan a trip. I'm thinking Europe because a friend of mine will be living in England getting her master's and I can visit more than one country at a time easily. What do you think? If you could go anywhere where would you go?

I need some new scenery in my life...

Until again
Cicely

This Heart O' Mine

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I have been doing so much introspection these days. Life has a way of making you think and think and think. I have been in deep thought about so many aspects of my life. Most recently, some things have come into focus about my love life and the future of.

What I have learned about this heart o' mine:

1) It's guarded. - This should be obvious, but I didn't realize it so much until lately. I'm bitchy, I'm hard on people and I don't take (what I perceive to be) bullshit. I feel like I have had to deal with so much dishonesty and lies from my past relationships, that I have to be a hard ass.

2) It's big. On the other hand I love deeply. I love fully and if it's anything but a relationship I almost love unconditionally. This love extends to my closest friends, my family, of course Liam and to some of my kids from my library job. I love people. I am an extrovert and I just love giving love.

3) It's determined. I don't want to settle for just anyone. I know and understand the quality of man that I want and I'm REALLY trying to keep hope alive that he's out there...somewhere looking for me too.

Those are just some of the things that have been rolling around in my head lately. Sorry it has taken me so long to write again. Be on the lookout for more entries this week.

Until again,
Cicely

Style, Hair and Catching up

 out on a Summer night

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Outfit of the night- date night Aug 11, 2013

NEW - Rue 107 + Retro Pop Drss ;)

 new do' - straight hair dont care and ends trimmed to the gawds lol Aug 9, 2013

This has been a short round up of my doings since my last entry! I promise to write more soon. Class will be starting next week for me and for Liam! ? :)

Adios,

Cicely

New Start

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Hey out there,

Well you know I have been on the job hunt for CNA positions and well really full time positions in the healthcare field that can work with and around my school schedule and I've finally take a step in the right direction! I'll be starting my new position July 18, but won't be leaving my beloved library job until August 15 :(.

I'm truly sad about it and will miss what I do. I'll miss those bad as kids and the stress of programming and that damn grant paper work and all the other things I usually complain about.

In my new position I'll be a Registration Clerk at a local hospital mostly doing ER 2nd/3rd shift. Although this is not the hands on position that I will be doing when I find employment as a CNA, it is a step in the right direction and works well with my schedule right now (i.e. it came right on time). I will get more pay, more hours initially and they have provided for my school schedule.

Again, this is not my "dream" position (i.e. one where I can deal with direct patient care and learn the ins and out of RN duties), but one step at a time I am getting there. I am still awaiting the results from my state test and then hopefully will be able to hear back from hospitals and begin to interview!

If all goes to plan, no later than October 1 I will be working 3 nights a week, 12 hr shifts (probably 7pm-7am), still freelancing on the weekend for Benefit, kicking ass in Chem (the goal is a B) and working on all the other fabulous things I want to accomplish.

I'm truly blessed and I don't want to take that for granted. I'm thankful that although this is not exactly what I want, it is right now what I need! I really believe that all my hard work/struggle/blood/sweat/tears now will not only shape me into a better person and mother that I will come out of Nursing school as one hell of a Nurse (and eventually Family Nurse Practitioner).

Ciao,
Cicely

Cicely June 2013 Updates Go Fund Me Campaign

Cicely as the Face of LieslBinx...Upcoming Project

I've started a campaign on GoFundMe.com please com support and check out what I'm trying to do ;) 

Support Cicely as Face of Liesl Binx Fall 2013

This page is dedicated to my journey to travel to Seattle and and support a fellow plus size girl, Liesl Binx, as she launches/develop her first fashion collection (Fall '13) and as I venture to continue to gain positive exposure in the plus industry. Most recently I was featured in the international online magazine Volup2 (www.volup2.com) Grace issue. I'm still pushing forward to make my dreams happen. Here's your chance to participate! :) 

About the Line:
This sharp fashion forward sportswear collection can be worn by plus size women of most ages as the designs offer a wide range of flexibility. Liesl uses classic silhouettes with unique on-trend design elements to spotlight the fuller figure. Focusing on perfect fit, and fabric choices along with functional garment construction this collection offers a new standard in plus size fashion. Inspired by self-love and body architecture Liesl presents you with her debut collection.

Check out: www.lieslbinx.com

Updates: Half Way Through 2013

I finally am going to make time to get back to my baby (i.e. this blog). I feel like I have been cheating myself and YOU, my readers out of content, inspiration and the love I used to show for one of the things I love to do. So I have returned to redeem myself! I'm back! :)

There is so much going on I'm not even 100% sure where to begin. Let's start with Liam! He completed about 6 weeks of Headstart and had his speech therapy and got into a routine. His speech is and has improved by leaps and bounds. I'm so proud of him and so happy for the progress that he's made.

School - I BARELY creeped by my Spring semester. I will go ahead and admit that I bombed Physio again and didn't get the C I needed to complete my pre-reqs, so as 3rd time has proved to be the charm for me, I am taking it again currently and have a solid B in the class. I FINALLY figured out the issue: I couldn't take the class with other classes AND while working. Now that it is my only class and I focus solely on that I am actually learning the material and excelling! Sheesh!

I finished my CNA class, did clinicals and just took my State CNA test June 14. I'm hoping I did well! I was super nervous.


Modeling - I was featured in a major publication, Volup2 magazine and I'm so happy with the work me , the photographer and the male model put in. I am still working towards being agency signed and trying to use all avenues to get my name and face out there. I also have another project currently in the works and hoping for that to take off :).

Work - I'm still at the library of course, but am sure I'll be leaving no later than mid August.I love my coworkers, my kids and what I do, but I have to move on to pursue my Nursing career and to provide more financial stability for me and Liam.

"Love" Life - y'all know I have to put that in quotes lol. Earlier in the Spring I dated a guy who I thought was decent enough, that turned out to be not the right situation for me. I really need to learn to listen to my intuition. I know what I want, I know what I deserve and I truly need to STOP settling. I'm promising myself that I won't settle for just ok and alright anymore. The next man I date I want to be long term...I'm looking for marriage material, father to my child and future kids material.

That being said lol, I did meet someone new. I get a waaaay different vibe from him. We talk about deep things, things that matter to me. We talk about finding our direction and purpose in life. He is vulnerable and it shows, he's been hurt and we've talked about it. He's dealt with a lot in his life and I really like his attitude/outlook on life. He has no kids, he wants to eventually have a family. We both have a love and appreciation for good music. I think in most aspects he's certainly on my level/we see things eye to eye. It's really refreshing. And we agree to and ARE ACTUALLY taking things super slow. There has been no making out, nothing, Just hand holding and a couple of quick pecks. It's really sweet. :).I'm really enjoying this whole patience thing and just letting things be and not rushing into things I'm not ready for...

Happy Father's Day & A Letter to my Future Husband

I want to take this time to wish all the fathers, grandfathers, uncles and father figures who value their role and the lives they change and better every day. And now, prompted by something similar I saw on Instagram I wanted to write a letter to my future husband, Liam's future step dad and the father of anymore kids I might have.

Dear Future Husband,

I am so blessed to have you in my/our life(lives). I love and appreciate everything you do and you make me so happy.I love that you cherish our children, that you take the time to help them with their homework, give them advice and help to keep them on the right path. Not only are you my partner in parenting, but you are a great provider and think of us in all that you do. When you are with our children, I can see the love you have for them in your eyes. I can hear it in your voice as you speak with them.

You are truly a gift from God and I wasn't sure I would ever meet you. Not only do you love the family we had from the start, but your love gets greater and you get better as a father as our family grows. I don't feel like a blended family because Liam is our son and to me and him, you are his father. I thank you for everything you do and for always supporting me and doing what's in the best interest for our family.Marrying you and growing our family was one of the best decisions I have ever made and there is no one more perfect to share this life with than you.

Again I thank you so much for all you do for me and our kids and we celebrate you on this day and all days for all that you give so selflessly.

Love always,
Cicely