WOW! It has been a full 2 months since my last post and again I have let life get in the way of things. I can't even put into writing all the ups and downs I have encountered since my absence, but I've been through a lot. Luckily, I'm STILL standing and I'm working my way to making sense of and sorting through my life again. I've now been at the hospital since March and working FT since May. I'm not in love with it, but it is currently what pays the bills. I'm still freelancing as a makeup artist and am working on a new project to start my own business.
I think every season, I go through a process and grow/change as a person. I have so many goals and so many things I want to see come to fruition in my life, but sometimes (like anyone) I get sidetracked. Nursing school is still a go, but I'm running into the age old dilemma of having enough $ to do the things I need and some things I want and to simply stay afloat. Liam needs a new bed and so do I. I would really like to move out of my current apartment. I'd like to stop working nights and working FT just to have benefits, but I NEED the insurance and so does Liam.
One of the dreams I'm working on setting sail is that of being as personal trainer and Nutrition Coach. I am really passionate about improving my life and health and the wellness and well being of others. As usual, money is my main deterrent and obstacle. But as with any other thing I have done in the past, I WILL find a way to meet my goals.
I honestly feel like your 20s is one of the most challenging decades of your life. I'm 26 years old and feel like I should be so much further. I want to do better and know that I can, but the process seems so slow and drawn out. I want a great and fulfilling career (or 2 or 3), a great husband, another child and to continue to raise my son. I want all of these things and sometimes I just wonder if they are for me. If these things are meant for someone like me?
Enough of harping on negative energy. Let's focus on the fact that I have an amazing 4 soon to be 5 year old son and just the thought of him alone fills my heart with warmth and happiness. I love my son and God knows I stay on the grind because and for him. I PROMISE to get back to some regular writing, if for no other reason than to keep myself sane. As always thanks for being my audience and thanks for the continued support of my blog.