Woke Up in a Better Mood & Better Headspace

On a very good note. I am now down 4.6 lbs and it feels good, yeeeaaah! lol

I will continue to pray about the custody situation and let God handle it.

I am now going to enjoy preschool hunting for Liam and have included Mom & Dad in the process as well :).

I am considering the following:

Sayre - the same private school I attended for 14 years. They now have a pre-k 3 and montessori program, although montessori is #1 for me

Lexington Montessori

Community Montessori

Children's Montessori School of Georgetown

Versailles Montessori

Today's agenda take Poops to the doctor to investigate the terrible cold, work, then try to get a workout in today!

Tomorrow we do Festival of the Horse in Georgetown :); I'm definitely taking pics and will post some on here.

I am going to enjoy my day/weekend with my love and not let anything or anyone get in the way of me doing that

Baby Love :)

What ALWAYS makes me happy :)

my fave :)

My Best is Not Always Good Enough

And that is exactly how I am feeling these days. I feel like one good thing will happen, just to make room for two more bad things. I know I am being tested, but I could just use a break for a minute. This custody thing SUCKS. I still maintain that I am doing what's best for the Poopster and I am aware and accept the sacrifices I have to make for him to have the life he deserves. I am by no means perfect, but I do feel like when it comes to this matter, I am being an adult about the situation to no avail.

All I know is I am doing this because I love my son and HE deserves the best. I just can't say anything else. If the shoe was on the other foot and I was in HIS situation - it would be SERIOUS. NOTHING BUT DEATH could keep me from my son. When Liam was in Kentucky before I was, I was depressed. I called multiple times a day, I wanted pics of him every day, I wanted to hear his voice everyday!!! For the simple fact, he wants none of those things, it is obvious this is a plan to get back at me! Fine, do what you have to do to me, but do NOT make MY son suffer b/c you're a damn fool! Get over yourself, please!

All I can do is pray to God for the strenght to do what I need to do and for guidance in doing the right thing.

Unitl again,
Cicely

Updates 'Cuz I'm Bad at This Lately!

Sooo much has been going on with me...the good and the bad. I had a short break from working out b/c I was sick for a few days. I am down 3 lbs (big fun since it's week 5 now! *sigh*).

I'm sick and tired of the custody b.s. :/

I'm broke and am actively looking for job #2...overnight would be best, but morning would work too!

Poops is 2 in 3 Sundays! Can't believe it. We are thinking a Monkey Joe's celebration and or the Horspark/Lex Children's museum :)

It's been a long time!

Yes, I admit. I have neglected you for far too long lol. Yep, I've been busy with work, trying to lose weight, working on being a good mom and letting life get in the way. I am currently sick with a mild cold b/c of this damn weather change. I feel like ish, but I'll be fine with some cough drops and more tea...*sigh* I dont even feel like eatin lol - yes might lose another lb or 2 this week. I have decided that June next year, I will be looking for a full time job in beauty. I will also continue to develop my own business, but I can't just let my dreams of being in beauty management die.

I have also resolved that I am moving back to NYC, I have to. Part of my survival depends on it. So once I get a handle on my debt, My goal will be saving $ to live in NYC again. I want to model again, I want to work in makeup again, I want me and Liam to forge our own lives independent of my parents. They may not understand, but I am doing what they always taught me to do: follow my dreams and my heart...both of which are in NYC.

But when I go back, I have a plan.

Have enough $ for 6 months rent and utilities expenses
Live in a place I can afford the rent
Go to school to get my waxing license
find the best montessori school for Liam + sitter/daycare - using the Child care assistance
be financially responsible
create a home out of a house/apartment
LIVE - go to the zoo, aquarium, yankee game with Liam. do the things we should have been doing but were too broke to enjoy
stay fit - join gym or PT with Diane

2013...I'm back baby!

First day of September!

Hey guys! I have been neglecting my blog somewhat! So my weight loss journey began once again Monday, August 29, 2011. I am down 1 lb, have worked out 3x this week and began weight watchers today. There is much more to come in my future.

Check out my youtube channel: MissCicelyCarter  for updates on weight loss stuff

Otherwise, life is ok. I am paying things off and trying to start the rest of my life one piece at a time. Thanks to all my friends and family for the support :)

More to come soon,

Cicely