So I'm not up for all the hoopla this year. I worked til 7 tonight and got home around 8:40pm. Sadly I was beat, broke and my tummy was rumbling for some good eats...so I came home threw down in the kitchen and am about to partake in a Margarita before I hit the bed and wake up in a new year. I am not going to write resolutions b/c I already know in my mind the things I can/will/need to do to make 2011 better than 2010.
I miss my Poops so much. It's only been about 3 days since he's been in Kentucky with my parents, but it feels like a lifetime! :( But I skyped with him yesterday and of course call and talk to him on the phone every day. I really don't have to much to say but let's go out and make those dreams a reality and I hope every1 had a safe, festive last day of 2010. Stay blessed
FLMM! :)
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Another Day, Another Dolla
I was happy to get called into work for tomorrow and Friday. A mere 11 hours of work, but I will be able to put a dent in some of the things I have to pay and most importantly buy Poops a couple pair of shoes that he definitely needs. Life is not perfect, but I am thankful for the little I do have. I actually have alot (in terms of emotional fulfillment - can't ask for anything better than Liam), but it's the material things I am so desperately lacking! So hopefully something wonderful materializes in the near future, I have a 2nd interview at the laser procedure office i applied for about 2.5 weeks ago. Hope that's a good sign.
I am in the process of taking steps to improve my health...details on that to follow.
I miss Poops something terrible, but I know I am doing the right thing for our situation. I love him too much to have him here in the midst of moving, me stressing about job huntin, etc. He is home with Granny and Pops with space, toys galore, good food and my whole family who just loves his little face - for that I am grateful. So tonight I go to bed thankful and hopeful for my future. Law school, good job, healthier me, better Mom and raising a smart, respectful son here I come! :)
I am in the process of taking steps to improve my health...details on that to follow.
I miss Poops something terrible, but I know I am doing the right thing for our situation. I love him too much to have him here in the midst of moving, me stressing about job huntin, etc. He is home with Granny and Pops with space, toys galore, good food and my whole family who just loves his little face - for that I am grateful. So tonight I go to bed thankful and hopeful for my future. Law school, good job, healthier me, better Mom and raising a smart, respectful son here I come! :)
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
As the Year Comes to a Close...
I have had a very busy past few days! Xmas came and went REALLY quickly. Poops is now in Kentucky with Mom & Dad and I'm already really sad. We drove to NYC with Adam and Ada and we just got back tonight. So loooooong! Also we missed Blizzard 2010 here in NYC, so I am thankful we left when the road conditions weren't terrible. I am back on my grind job hunting for cosmetics jobs and praying to God that He will make a way. I still can't believe in 5 short days, this crazy year will be over. I can only hope and pray and look forward to wonderful things next year. I am making this a short entry. I am exhausted! I will write more ASAP. Good night!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
And This Christmas, Will Be...
I still can NOT believe it is Christmas on Saturday! It feels unreal! I am not having a Christmas like any I have had before, but I do get to go home and spend it with my family and well that's the ONLY thing I want to do every year anyways. I bought Poops a Christmas sweater, some dress shoes and will be buying more sippy cups and other essentials. He still needs boots and some more walking shoes. He's good with clothes. I wish I had enough money to buy something for my parents. I feel guilty when I can't get them stuff til about 6 weeks later (tax return). Even my friends don't get their Xmas gifts til the day AFTER Xmas when all the holiday gift sets are 50-75% off! But hey a bargain is a bargain and they are mostly here in NYC anyways.
Poops will be staying behind in Kentucky when we go down there until February...or for just about a month if the job offer comes through...I am not so worried about it anymore. What is meant to happen will happen and I know that I will find my way to happiness eventually. So it's 90% likely I'm moving back to KY mid February.
I'm ready to ace this LSAT, get into L-school and begin that new chapter of my life...for what I am looking for, I have decided that Fordham University will be my first choice. I am applying there PT (for the first year) depending on my LSAT score and also for a dual degree - MFA in Creative Writing. That way I can do two things I am passionate about that are on opposite sides of the brain :).
I still am not feeling the holiday cheer. I don't know what the difference is between this year and every other. Well we didnt decorate around the apartment and there hasn't really been any snow. Not to mention this month just FLEW by...I guess?! Until the next time...
Poops will be staying behind in Kentucky when we go down there until February...or for just about a month if the job offer comes through...I am not so worried about it anymore. What is meant to happen will happen and I know that I will find my way to happiness eventually. So it's 90% likely I'm moving back to KY mid February.
I'm ready to ace this LSAT, get into L-school and begin that new chapter of my life...for what I am looking for, I have decided that Fordham University will be my first choice. I am applying there PT (for the first year) depending on my LSAT score and also for a dual degree - MFA in Creative Writing. That way I can do two things I am passionate about that are on opposite sides of the brain :).
I still am not feeling the holiday cheer. I don't know what the difference is between this year and every other. Well we didnt decorate around the apartment and there hasn't really been any snow. Not to mention this month just FLEW by...I guess?! Until the next time...
Friday, December 17, 2010
Mama the Mua's been Working!
Hey! Sorry it has been a couple of days. Got 5 days in a row freelancing in Jersey City and although an almost 2 hr commute...well worth it and I'm enjoying and of course happy to pick up some days at work! God is good! I am hoping that this is a precursor for more good things that are about to happen in my near future with job prospects namely from that Australian brand I interviewed with on Wednesday! Here are some pics of my makeup/hair lately. Enjoy :)
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I must confess...
To amend a previous review I gave of the Iman Luxury Radiance Liquid Foundation...I must say that I really do LOVE it! It has grown on me. Although it does come OUT of the tube a golden color, it actually blends into the orangey/cool tone that I love wear on my skin...I'm actually excited. My skin looks dewy, youthful and well Luminous! lol I use just a pea size for great coverage. I am definitely going to buy her powder now. I have finally found a way to be stylish, radiant AND frugal :) YAY :) Here is a pic of me wearing it recently:
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Thanks to My Followers!
Hey so I realize this is kinda corny, but I would just like to shout out the 9 people who have followed my blog! I have been at this for 3 months :) and I'm glad people actually care about what I have to say. :)
On another completely random note. I'm sure most people have taken those personality tests that put you into 3 of the following categories that you rank the highest in (realistic, investigative, artistic, social, enterprising, conventional). No matter how many times I took those damn things I continued to get the same results: Social, Enterprising, Artistic.
At first I was kind of disgruntled with my results. At 14, I didn't really want to be told that after college I could go on to become a teacher or a hair stylist or better yet a social worker. All of those things were SO not appealing to me. Now that I have fully understood the extent to which those categories can reach, I now know they fit me to a T! :)
On another completely random note. I'm sure most people have taken those personality tests that put you into 3 of the following categories that you rank the highest in (realistic, investigative, artistic, social, enterprising, conventional). No matter how many times I took those damn things I continued to get the same results: Social, Enterprising, Artistic.
At first I was kind of disgruntled with my results. At 14, I didn't really want to be told that after college I could go on to become a teacher or a hair stylist or better yet a social worker. All of those things were SO not appealing to me. Now that I have fully understood the extent to which those categories can reach, I now know they fit me to a T! :)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Lesson Learned
This past week has been nuts! Poops had his surgery on Thursday and made it through with flying colors. He is doing great and you would never know he even had surgery. Me on the other hand, I feel like poopie warmed over. I have some sinus issues and have felt terrible since Friday. I have pretty much been hibernating this weekend. Looks like I will be going home for Christmas after all, probably December 22-29.
The whole Macy's situation fell through, they were NOT going to pay me what I believe I deserved to get paid or what made sense for the position. So another one bites the dust. When I tell people I will be leaving NYC in February, they all ask me "why?". I'm f-in broke that's why! lol I can't find a job even paying enough to sustain me and let me pay my rent. I have no choice but to leave. It's December and I just don't think I'm going to be able to pull off finding a job in the next 8 weeks! :/
Also, this week I thought I had lost a good friend of mine because of my assholishness. Yeah! I really need to work on that...Til next time
The whole Macy's situation fell through, they were NOT going to pay me what I believe I deserved to get paid or what made sense for the position. So another one bites the dust. When I tell people I will be leaving NYC in February, they all ask me "why?". I'm f-in broke that's why! lol I can't find a job even paying enough to sustain me and let me pay my rent. I have no choice but to leave. It's December and I just don't think I'm going to be able to pull off finding a job in the next 8 weeks! :/
Also, this week I thought I had lost a good friend of mine because of my assholishness. Yeah! I really need to work on that...Til next time
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Figuring it Out
Since being underemployed, I have an incredible amount of time to reflect on things (blessing and a curse). I think about decisions I have made, am making and will make in the future. Some things havent changed: my desire to go to law school, my desire to model and as always my desire to write and create through poetry. I have especially sat around and thought about my current lack of full time employment. I'm not as stressed as I was previously- well I actually am, but it comes in bouts. But I feel like I have exhausted EVERY angle and option that I have. It seems like the Counter Manager position is going to fall flat and at this point there are really no other offers on the table.
I have an interview tomorrow with a dermo-cosmetic spa chain here in NYC. I don't know what it means, but I pray it is something good. I have said that if I can find a position paying $35,000+ I will remain in NYC. I realize that it is a very LONG shot to get that salary range with the little experience I do have, but that's what it would take for me to get out of this shitty apartment, pay off my debt, afford daycare and be a generally happier and better adjusted Mom and person.
I am going into tomorrow's interview hoping to wow these people with my personality, southern charm, positive energy and hope they can see the drive I have to succeed and make a career for myself. I am almost 23 and I am done with jobs. If offered this position, I would stay 2-2.5 years for my start date, let us not forget that I am planning on being a lawyer too. :) So let's say if hired now, i would stay until about June 2013 and then begin law school fall 2013 (hopefully they would let me defer my enrollment one more year). So I am praying that this works out or that God has some bigger plan that I start to see the makings of real soon. I just want to survive and be happy. I want to be the best Mom and provider I can be.
On another note, I was recently told by a male friend that I was too career oriented. As in, I told him that if the choice came between "love" and my career, that is actually something I would have to think about. Scenario: I become a lawyer and get a great job offer in hundreds of miles away. Relocation paid for, great schools, set up in an apartment, great salary. I cannot say for sure I would give that up for a man. UNLESS I was married, then of course if my husband can't relocate then it wouldn't make sense. But I don't see myself as a 30 year old lawyer with a 9 year old turning down that type of opportunity for advancement. At the end of the day, the only man I have to look out for is Liam. It has been me and him since day 1 and will always be. If I don't look out for our best interest, no one else will.
So I will post tomorrow to update on the interview and how it went! Until then...
I have an interview tomorrow with a dermo-cosmetic spa chain here in NYC. I don't know what it means, but I pray it is something good. I have said that if I can find a position paying $35,000+ I will remain in NYC. I realize that it is a very LONG shot to get that salary range with the little experience I do have, but that's what it would take for me to get out of this shitty apartment, pay off my debt, afford daycare and be a generally happier and better adjusted Mom and person.
I am going into tomorrow's interview hoping to wow these people with my personality, southern charm, positive energy and hope they can see the drive I have to succeed and make a career for myself. I am almost 23 and I am done with jobs. If offered this position, I would stay 2-2.5 years for my start date, let us not forget that I am planning on being a lawyer too. :) So let's say if hired now, i would stay until about June 2013 and then begin law school fall 2013 (hopefully they would let me defer my enrollment one more year). So I am praying that this works out or that God has some bigger plan that I start to see the makings of real soon. I just want to survive and be happy. I want to be the best Mom and provider I can be.
On another note, I was recently told by a male friend that I was too career oriented. As in, I told him that if the choice came between "love" and my career, that is actually something I would have to think about. Scenario: I become a lawyer and get a great job offer in hundreds of miles away. Relocation paid for, great schools, set up in an apartment, great salary. I cannot say for sure I would give that up for a man. UNLESS I was married, then of course if my husband can't relocate then it wouldn't make sense. But I don't see myself as a 30 year old lawyer with a 9 year old turning down that type of opportunity for advancement. At the end of the day, the only man I have to look out for is Liam. It has been me and him since day 1 and will always be. If I don't look out for our best interest, no one else will.
So I will post tomorrow to update on the interview and how it went! Until then...
Friday, December 3, 2010
Original POSTING 9/30/2010 Mama's on a Roll
This is my 2nd blog this week...oww! :) I'm proud of myself. I went to pick up my degree yesterday and it still seems kinda surreal to me that I have finally graduated college. I guess it's because much of the things that are happening in my life were still happening while I was in school! :/? lol
Liam had a doc appt with the Urologist today, but as always with public health insurance, there are some hoops to jump through :/ He WILL be circumcised before he reaches 18 months damnit! But on that note I'm going to job hunt and make use of the rest of my day. Benefit Cosmetics hired me as a freelancer, but it's not a guarantee of steady hours, so the hunt continues...might have an interview tomorrow with Rite Aid as a shift leader...we shall see. until next time
FutureLawyerModelMama
Liam had a doc appt with the Urologist today, but as always with public health insurance, there are some hoops to jump through :/ He WILL be circumcised before he reaches 18 months damnit! But on that note I'm going to job hunt and make use of the rest of my day. Benefit Cosmetics hired me as a freelancer, but it's not a guarantee of steady hours, so the hunt continues...might have an interview tomorrow with Rite Aid as a shift leader...we shall see. until next time
Life or Something Like it!
Another end to another week and I am pissed AGAIN, overwhelmed and outdone!
#1- My unemployment has been delayed for 2 weeks so I have not had ANY money for TWO WEEKS. Even after I called these people to correct whatever error there was, still no payments have been released. WTMF???
#2- Not only did the would-be future employer NOT agree to a higher salary, they had the nerve to try to undercut me 50 LESS cents. You have got to be f&*kin' kidding me?!?!?! I am at the point where I really want to say f&*k everything!!! I AM SOOOOO TIRED OF EVERYTHING GOING WRONG IN MY LIFE. 1 step forward and 2 steps back! It apparently is going to be f--kin' impossible for me to pay my rent in full, pay my utilities, have ANYTHING for Xmas, new shoes for Liam for Xmas. I am at the end!
#3- Also, of course today they would call me back from LHA & want to meet with me to fill out paperwork for housing TOMORROW! why oh why did it have to be tomorrow? That doesn't even give me the time to take a bus home or ANYTHING! My hands are tied and I honestly don't know what else to do. I have run out of all options and have no idea what else to do!
No MONEY! No FT JOB! No HELP! No end in sight of this bullsh!t that has consumed my life!!!!
I really would like to just run to an open field and SCREAM at the TOP OF MY LUNGS.I am still holding out hope that things will come together and work out because they always do, but I don't see an end to this one, I really dont. I have prayed about the situation, but there is apparently nothing else earthly that can be done to remedy the problems I have right now.
#1- My unemployment has been delayed for 2 weeks so I have not had ANY money for TWO WEEKS. Even after I called these people to correct whatever error there was, still no payments have been released. WTMF???
#2- Not only did the would-be future employer NOT agree to a higher salary, they had the nerve to try to undercut me 50 LESS cents. You have got to be f&*kin' kidding me?!?!?! I am at the point where I really want to say f&*k everything!!! I AM SOOOOO TIRED OF EVERYTHING GOING WRONG IN MY LIFE. 1 step forward and 2 steps back! It apparently is going to be f--kin' impossible for me to pay my rent in full, pay my utilities, have ANYTHING for Xmas, new shoes for Liam for Xmas. I am at the end!
#3- Also, of course today they would call me back from LHA & want to meet with me to fill out paperwork for housing TOMORROW! why oh why did it have to be tomorrow? That doesn't even give me the time to take a bus home or ANYTHING! My hands are tied and I honestly don't know what else to do. I have run out of all options and have no idea what else to do!
No MONEY! No FT JOB! No HELP! No end in sight of this bullsh!t that has consumed my life!!!!
I really would like to just run to an open field and SCREAM at the TOP OF MY LUNGS.I am still holding out hope that things will come together and work out because they always do, but I don't see an end to this one, I really dont. I have prayed about the situation, but there is apparently nothing else earthly that can be done to remedy the problems I have right now.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Updates on the Adventures!
Hey guys,
I cannot believe it is a brand new month and the last month of the year at that. in 30 days we will be in 2011. Time is just seemingly flying by. Though this has been a rough year to say the least, I am soo thankful for the good things that have happened in my life and I guess even thankful for the bad ones! The end of this year truly signals the start of my full time prep again for the LSAT and law school admissions and I can't be happier. I know that once I get in, the REAL work begins, but I am ready. I am ready to have a meaningful and challenging career, I am ready to become a judge or possibly open up my own practice. I am ready to see justice served. I am also ready to live out my dreams of modeling, ready to publish my poetry and most importantly ready for the thrills and challenges that motherhood poses as Poops gets older.
I am ready to be debt free! lol I am ready to begin enjoying life and I am ready to work on being a better person. 12 months can be a short time or a long time, depends on how u look at it. What I do know is that by Oct 15, 2011 ALL my law school applications will be completed and sent out. Hopefully, in a year's time I will be writing in this blog about where I got in :)
Still waiting on a decision from the powers that would be at Macy's about the salary negotiation - bleh!
til next time!
I cannot believe it is a brand new month and the last month of the year at that. in 30 days we will be in 2011. Time is just seemingly flying by. Though this has been a rough year to say the least, I am soo thankful for the good things that have happened in my life and I guess even thankful for the bad ones! The end of this year truly signals the start of my full time prep again for the LSAT and law school admissions and I can't be happier. I know that once I get in, the REAL work begins, but I am ready. I am ready to have a meaningful and challenging career, I am ready to become a judge or possibly open up my own practice. I am ready to see justice served. I am also ready to live out my dreams of modeling, ready to publish my poetry and most importantly ready for the thrills and challenges that motherhood poses as Poops gets older.
I am ready to be debt free! lol I am ready to begin enjoying life and I am ready to work on being a better person. 12 months can be a short time or a long time, depends on how u look at it. What I do know is that by Oct 15, 2011 ALL my law school applications will be completed and sent out. Hopefully, in a year's time I will be writing in this blog about where I got in :)
Still waiting on a decision from the powers that would be at Macy's about the salary negotiation - bleh!
til next time!
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